me @ end of 2009

*I am still playing violin, rehearsal on every weekdays since March.
*I had lost some weight, but I couldn't quit smoke.
*I kept doing push-ups everyday, because I haven't done much exercise as I should.
*I probably only receive maximum four calls a week.
*I write one or two letters at each week.
*I start to get bored to be a concertmaster. I want to to be a conductor.
*I still drinking coffee at every morning, made by myself. (Most people don't in China)
*I turned away all the 'secret admire' from my orchestra.
*I got 'spoiled' by girls setting around me in orchestra. I felt bad sometimes I spoke mean stuff to them.
*I promised, be nice and be good.
*I finally found a church in my city. I will have a place to pray.
*I earned my reputations, but I didn't like the fact that my 'fans' are Moms and very young girls.
*I almost didn't spend on buying anything for a year. I saved my salary and I will give away for a better use.
*I admire people around who had married and become a father. But, I crossed that from my future list.
*I have not date anyone for years, I guess part of my heart is gone.
*I often mistaken people of my age by how I look.
*I am scared of noise, like old man.
*I don't know what is the meaning of my life when I miss someone.
*I don't talk much anymore.
*I am still very health in my appearance, just getting old in soul.
*I don't hold any angers from past anymore. I think I can say 'hi' again.
*I will squeeze more time to get more concertos done.
*I understood even I am not a happy soul, I don't have right to bring it to others.
*I wish next year, I will have a chance to conduct something and go to Europe.
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Yong@11.2009