For last couple of months, I tried my best to keep being busy. I get up at 7:45, work until 4:30. then, maybe take a nap before dinner which will give me energy at night. After dinner, I get back to practice my violin for an hour or two until around 9:30. Then I get online read something or write something.....
But, when I am tired, can't work anymore, I don't know what to do. I don't want to talk to anyone even there isn't anyone I can freely share my mind. I try to watch a movie online, but I can't concentrate on the story... I sit there, stare on wall in my small room, feel so empty. I will start to miss someone, and it will making me want to cry. I have to write another letter so I felt I am talking to her, and I won't feel too depressed. But, I know it would never be read. I just wish I could sleep and waiting for another busy day, so I don't have time to think, to miss, to love.
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